Since we wrapped up a chapter in our lives church planting nearly 10 years ago, my wife and I have yet to really find what we’re looking for in a spiritual community.
Something I asked her last night had to do with calling, and what does that look like. I understand in my head that calling may look different from person to person, but I still can’t help but wonder if there is some sort of common thread, a similar moment when most people recognize their calling as, “yep, that’s it.”
Does being called to something mean that I recognize a need, a gap in the way things are and am willing to work to fill that gap? Is it making something work better, being good for more people?
I don’t know for sure, but there is certainly something in my gut that says that my wife and I could certainly be forced for good in the world if we were to actually do what we’ve been talking about. I just feel like I have too much baggage from the past that I’ve allowed to have too much sway over me. There are definitely things I’ve still got to work through: fear, confidence, forgiveness.
So, what’s stopping us? Really? How can I choose presence and intention and follow that thing in me that’s not okay with the status quo?
I’m not sure yet, other than maybe just do it. Sometimes we need to learn to swim and the only way for it to happen is to be thrown in. I’ll see what happens.